Hearts of Life

Wooohhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Okay I don't know what expression that is, but I'm feeling so random now. HAha. Currently waiting for the clock to strike 9(am), then I'm going out for breakfast! So yea, thought it would be a nice idea to update the blog. Ahahaa.

Yes exams are over! As everyone knows. Haha. Have been busy searching for a new flat for next (academic) year, met some complications, but I guess all's well now. Photos...next year! XD When I take them myself. AHAHA. Can't wait to decorate my own room! =D Though it's not that big. =S

Gotta finalise my packing these few days, or rather, today, because...because Yi Rhu is a busy busy girl! =p Going to Austria for 6 days on Friday, then coming back on Wed, Thurs pack pack, Fri leave! Yayyyyy! =))

I learn not to drink coffee in the morning anymore, with an empty stomach. Made me couldn't sleep half the night yesterday, feeling a lil tired now. =( So my mind was racing around, thinking about how to arrange all the things I have into two boxes, what to bring home, whose prezzies I've left...I think I'm going to feed everyone choc! Hahahaha. If they survive the plane journey. XD

Okay, I think I am going to get ready now. Toilet! Blah. Can't wait to see everyone! =))

Homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Just decided to write something, because if I bottle up any more, I'll burst!

I miss home.

Home = Family. Friends. 1U. Centrepoint. Playground. DJ. Driving. Bed. TV. Everything. =)

Now that exams are nearing (like, really nearing. 4 days...), it also means that I am going home soon. Not THAT soon, but after exams it would be time to pack up my things and go home within those few weeks, and inevitably I will think about all the wonderful things I am going to do at home...

Since few days ago, whenever I am going to sleep, I would think not of exams stuff, but of my idealistic plans to do before and when I go back..eg.:

BEFORE
1. Because I've made plans with friends to go Austria like, SHORTLY before I go back, there wouldn't be enough time to pack everything after I return from Austria, so I would have to do the packing before I leave. Also need to search for storage companies to put the bulk of my clothes and stuff that I have managed to accumulate over the 9 months...which is a lot, really. My space is only like, about 9-10square metres, but I am a junk collector, literally, so I will be having a hard time clearing up my stuff! (not to mention the souvenirs that I've kept...) Calculated, probably takes about 2 days to clear up my room properly. Haha.

2. Do shopping! IF you all have anything that you all want from London, tell me! Whether or not I buy for you all as a gift...is another thing. =p Hehe. But honestly, no promises that I'll have souvenirs for everyone, though I'll do my best! =) Summer now, bikinis anyone? XD

3. Search for next (academic) year's accommodation. A hassle really, fingers crossed that it'll all be smooth and fine!

AFTER
1. FIRST thing I'm going to do when I get out of the customs is...give a big big big hug to my family. Don't know why, have the feeling that I will be quite emotional. Probably reach home at 7+ or 8+ pm, then dinner? Wondering if my mum would cook for me. But again, maybe they'll eat out! (I know, I think about all these really teeny weeny stuff...)

2. Take a loooonngggggg niceeeee bath. Wear my old pyjamas. Sit on the sofa, watch tv. Though realistically, either I'll be busy updating my parents about everything, or busy unpacking, or busy calling everyone to tell them that I'm back! LOL.

3. Sunday will be the first morning I'm back home. That means, Indian breakfast with dad and younger sis! Spicy food. Yumm. Probably stay at home the whole day, OR, stock up my clothing (since the bulk of it would be in some secluded area for storage...)

4. Start driving again. Though don't think there's any available cars for me to re-learn. Lol.

5. Start bonding with my younger sis again!

6. ENJOY mum's cooking. I really miss the simple dishes.

7. LEARN cooking. For the betterment of my future housemates... AHAHA.

8. Find a job/internship/whatever that makes money.

9. Go out with friends! I think I have made a lot of promises to a lot of friends that I'll spend time with them when I'm back... =)

10. Spend more time at home. Or at least, with family. (quite contradictory to the previous statement.) Honestly, nothing's warmer than home. Ahhhh.

11. OH. Just remembered. Polish up my piano skills. It's beyond rustiness. Gahhhh.

Can't think of more stuff at the moment. I just know that there are so many things to do. Yippee.

Did I mention that flashes of 1U and Centrepoint have been coming up in my mind? It's like, I saw myself walking, and all the shops are still at their original positions...gosh. That's what that's making me missing home so much la. But it's not just about shopping. From time to time I would be retracing the route from my house to 1U, to Curve, to DJ, to Taylor's...

Home is so far, yet so near. =/

But one thing for sure, my exams are just around the corner. More coffee!

Finished ranting. Yay. Feeling a tad bit better now. =) Thanks for reading. HAHA.

It has been SO LONG since I updated this abandoned blog.

I'm sorrryyy! Haha. Excuses: Studies, play, slack, lazy. =p

Anyways, I was just doing revision (more like, re-studying) of one of the math subjects, and I got so sick of it, that I just decided to update my blog. Ehehe. I don't know who reads my blog anymore, probably this post will only be seen a month after it's been posted up! LOL. Yes, I WILL update more often..next year. HAHA. Since if I'm back in Malaysia, you all will get live updates from me! XD

I can't believe time has passed so fast, that my first year is coming to an end. In, say, 18 days, I will be free of all these coursework (for 3 months, at least.). 18 days! 9 days to my finals, another 9 days for my exams to end. =D It's stressful, yes, I find all the pimples coming back...There's such immense pressure, because of the crazy competition among friends, coursemates, or even subjectmates. Everyone's brilliant here, and I am just somewhere in the middle. Lol.

I think I have failed myself very badly in the sense that I didn't manage to keep in touch with a lot of my friends, back in Malaysia. Gosh, I just so look forward to the days when I'm back home! =)

I'm just typing whatever that's coming to my mind now, it's 1am!

But I always sleep at 2-3am nowadays. =p

I'm fatter. =(

My table's such a mess, I don't know how I'll manage to clear the room when I have to move out...

I'm so in love with this song now:


I'm not prepared for exams. =(

I really am not. =((

OH well. This is just some random update la. Haha. Since anyways, I think I'm more active on Facebook. Why post photos here when it's so much more convenient to do it on FB? =p Ehehehe.

I miss everybody!

Oh btw, if you all are asking when I'm going back...it's a surprise. =) HAha. But it's definitely after my birthday. =( Somewhere mid-end June!

I’ve learned- 
that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned-
that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned-
that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned-
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-
that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned-
that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.

I've learned-
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned-
that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned-
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-
that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned-
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned-
that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned-
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned-
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I've learned-
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned-
that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned-
that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned-
that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned-
that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I've learned-
that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned-
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned-
that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

I've learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned-
that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned-
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned-
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned-
that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned-
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned-
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned-
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned-
that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings, and standing up for what you believe.

I've learned-
that people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

Taken from: http://penn.betatesters.com/wisdom01.htm

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Chinese New Year is cominggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not that I would be celebrating it much back in Malaysia anyways.

=(

It's officially a week into 2009!

And honestly, I have done nothing to be proud of. I don't know what I did, but time just passed. Like, zooomm! Well I know I have vacuumed the room, wash my bedsheets, went over to MJ's to cook, semi-baked a cake, spent loads of money, went into Harrods for the first time, met up with Eu Vin...but I have not touched my work! And my French homework is gathering dust. Gahhhh.

And in two and a half weeks' time, it would be, Chinese New Year! Come to think about it, it would be my very very very first (and not the last) time spending CNY without my family, without angpaus, without yummy cookies, without gambling, without the RED-ness. Normally by this time the shopping malls and shops in PJ would be filled with all the CNY goodies and cheerful songs, but in London, it's d-e-a-d. At least, for Chinatown. They are selling only some red lanterns and fortune cookies. How sad is that!

And to make matters worst...it would be the first time I don't get a public holiday for CNY. It's on a Monday, and Monday is my busiest day. Lectures and classes from 11am-6pm, with only an hour break in between. =( And the same goes for the rest of the week...it would be like any other normal day. =( Even back in Singapore, they had school holidays so I got to go back to Malaysia for a while. Arrrgghhhh.

So I comfort myself by listening to the Malaysia radio station - Chinese, where they would broadcast CNY songs, that make me miss home even more. But there are much more important things to look ahead...and I know dwelling over it wouldn't be the best option. So, I cheer myself up by calling home! Haha. Not very often though, probably once or twice a week now, just to let my younger sis talk to me. Lol.

I received a parcel from home two days ago. It contained - 3 shawls, a bottle, a lollipop (LOL), some biscuits and seaweed (my fav!), 3 tupperwares, pens, some stuff I asked from home, curry powder, and a postcard from Cameron Highlands. It feels really good to receive things from home, and to imagine the fun and squabbles my sisters would have when they were deciding on the things to put into the box. That really made my day. =D

So...it's Thursday evening now. I have Friday, half of Saturday, and Sunday to get my work REALLY done and get back into the busy peasy life of London. Half of Saturday because...I will be going to IKEA, finally! =)))))))))

My dear abandoned blog. =(

Haha. It's not that I have nothing to write about - I have LOADS to write about, but then, after my Spain trip, there have been a series of activities that kept me occupied, mainly dinners and TVB dramas. LOL.

Anyways, I have uploaded all the Spain trip photos to Facebook, kind of lazy to upload it here, it'll take pretty long for the page to load too! But all in all, Spain was pretty okay, I wouldn't say that it was extremely fun because of a few reasons:-

1. The people there aren't exactly VERY friendly. Probably because we don't speak Spanish and they don't quite understand English. They do exploit tourists too...tried to con us. =(

2. The food there is super expensive! Probably because of the super low currency exchange rate at that time, it was like, 1 pound to 1.11 euros. But the prices of goods there have not changed, so it was pretty expensive for us.

3. I got pick pocketed. Or rather, pick bagged! Yea...lost about 50 pounds, and my cute little purple phone pouch! =( It's only material stuff, so it's okay.

4. The biggest drawback of all...My iPod Touch got stolen as well. Yea, it happened on the same night I got pick bagged. So it was really really sucky =( But they were two separate incidents - one was in a shop, another was, I left my iPod in the room, then it disappeared. Oh well, I pretty much got over it, because honestly I'm super thankful that my passport, camera, handphone, etc didn't get stolen. Cash and gadget, I can survive without them!!!

ANYWAYS. On a brighter note...

I got back from Spain on the 20th Dec. Slept at, 3-4am? Zzz. Super tiring. I'm honestly glad that I had the room for myself.

21st Dec - Lazed around, watched drama, went out for dinner...Super super relaxed. Haha.

22nd Dec - Made tong yuen at night! Haha. Glad that I managed to get pandan leaves. Though very expensive =(

23rd Dec - Pre-Christmas dinner with friends. Right at my kitchen!

24th Dec - Mun Jean's cousin's Christmas dinner.

25th Dec - Christmas dinner with another group of friends. At my kitchen AGAIN! LOL.

26th Dec - Woke up early to see what was so great about the after-Christmas sales! Supposedly prices were to be slashed crazily. LOL. Well, the crowd was pretty enormous. I honestly don't know how the Londoners can spend so much money. It's all too expensive for me =(

27th Dec - Made Bak Kut Teh for dinner! (Spices all pre-packed. Duh!) Haha.

28th Dec - Leftover Bak Kut Teh for dinner again? HAhaha.

29th Dec - Stayed in the whole day!

30th Dec - And today....basically spent the whole day doing nothing productive.

There you go. I pretty much wasted half my holidays, not doing any solid work at all. Which is BAD. Bad bad bad.

Okay, change topic.

Obviously, now that 2008 is ending soon, I would be thinking back, seeing how far I have gone.

And I thought to myself, quite far, Yi Rhu, quite far.

To think that I have came all the way from SPM, from Singapore, from Taylor's, from Monash! And to land here, where I am today, it really is a blessing. A privilege.

I thoroughly enjoyed the year of 2008, because it is the year that marks one of the milestones in my life, stepping into not one, but two universities. Lol. I feel that there is always someone who looks out for me out there, guiding me to where I am today. It feels very abstract, but I feel very blessed, honestly. We shall not dwell into it, you people might get bored. Lol.

I feel very loved, that's the main point. By family, by friends. <3

Let's talk about London life another time. Haha. When I'm not so lazy. =p

All in all, I'm pretty satisfied with the way 2008 has passed for me, though things have not always been smooth all the time, but what I have with me now of 2008 are happy memories and lovely pictures. =) I never remember sad occasions! (Well, other than important ones. Of course.)

I look forward to 2009! I want it to be a blast, a ka-boom sort of thing. I want myself to go, 'Omg 2009 was such an incredible year!' that sort of thing. And although I don't know how I will achieve this, I am sure that it will be the same for the rest of you.

Happy New Year 2009!!!!!!!!

=)



Lots of loves and hugs,
Yi Rhu

I miss all of you!!!